Recently a friend of ours gifted me a book about miscarriage from a Christian lens. (For anyone interested it’s called Grace Like Scarlett: Grieving with Hope after Miscarriage and Loss by Adriel Booker.) I’ve only read the first section, but it’s already an intense read. The raw details of her miscarriages and emotions so closelyContinue reading “The Full Story”
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fighting for joy
After a solid 7 days of relief and healthy coping, this week’s gloomy weather led to another dip into sadness and anxiety. My imagination was not a good friend to me. It’s incredible that the same brain that produces lyrics and poetry and blogs to help me cope can stab me in the back andContinue reading “fighting for joy”
snowballs
I read Chrissy Teigen’s instagram post about her miscarriage and cried in solidarity with her. While in many ways a very different experience, there are elements of her account that take me back to the heartbreak of my miscarriage. The anxiety of bleeding slowly and steadily for days. Looking in the toilet and trying toContinue reading “snowballs”
July 22, 2020
The days have been dragging more than usual. This Friday it will be two months since I miscarried and as I wait for the day to arrive it feels like I’m waiting for an eternity. Two months pregnant and two months childless. There was always something to learn and look forward to as each weekContinue reading “July 22, 2020”
Boundaries
On Monday night I realized I was emotionally exhausted and feeling bitterness towards some of my close friends. I couldn’t place where all of this was coming from or why I felt frustrated and emotionally drained. There’s probably a lot more to figure out, but I came to a couple of conclusions. Every single personContinue reading “Boundaries”
Lonely
The common question is: How are you doing?I feel lonely. Even the stories of other miscarriages make me feel alone because no one has the exact same story. There’s camaraderie in acknowledging the shared heartache, but even the level of heartache and method of processing differs depending on the person. I talked about the loveContinue reading “Lonely”
Processing Anger
Over the course of the last three-ish weeks, I’ve realized that there’s something new to work through every day. I mentioned in my previous post that I was having a hard time praying and being vulnerable with God. This weekend, as I took my monthly Sunday off from leading worship, I was allowed time toContinue reading “Processing Anger”
The Week of Appointments
In an attempt to normalize this (miscarriage) a little bit more, for myself and whoever might be reading this, I think I need to write down all of the feelings and thoughts that I experienced before and after the miscarriage as I trekked back and forth to the doctor. When you’re in the thick ofContinue reading “The Week of Appointments”
Hi, Baby
CW: miscarriage Hi Baby, It’s been five days since I last wrote to you. It feels like it’s been much longer than that. It’s raining and thundering right now. The sky is really dark. It makes me want to lie in bed and do nothing.I missed you a lot last night and I thought aboutContinue reading “Hi, Baby”
Drops of Jules 