faith – Drops of Jules

Our First

Dear Eden, At some point in the next two to three weeks you would have been celebrating your first birthday. Admittedly, your actual day of birth holds more significance to me because I experienced it firsthand with you. This March/April “birthday” is something I can only think about in theory. You would be turning 1.Continue reading “Our First”

A Poem and A Prayer

A poem and a prayer, words whispered in the dark not for the first or last time. ~Eden,You have the best seat in the houseYou get to see the full yellow moon,The constellations are at your fingertips.Orion’s Belt is really clear tonightThe three studs in his belt stand out against the night sky.I think ofContinue reading “A Poem and A Prayer”

Body Image After Miscarriage

It’s been a quiet two weeks since Thanksgiving. I haven’t known what to write because frankly there isn’t much to share. On a spiritual and emotional level I’m in a much better place. Heui Chan and I are laughing a lot more and just riding out work and life until Christmas. I suppose the bitContinue reading “Body Image After Miscarriage”

Thanksgiving

Somehow we’ve made it to Thanksgiving. What a year, right? At a quick glance the year feels like a wash, wasted, depressing. Covid-19, unrest across the world, unrest in our country, death, loss, sickness, division. It seemed like one thing led to another until we were all left wondering, ‘Okay, what now? What else couldContinue reading “Thanksgiving”

fighting for joy

After a solid 7 days of relief and healthy coping, this week’s gloomy weather led to another dip into sadness and anxiety. My imagination was not a good friend to me. It’s incredible that the same brain that produces lyrics and poetry and blogs to help me cope can stab me in the back andContinue reading “fighting for joy”

Boundaries

On Monday night I realized I was emotionally exhausted and feeling bitterness towards some of my close friends. I couldn’t place where all of this was coming from or why I felt frustrated and emotionally drained. There’s probably a lot more to figure out, but I came to a couple of conclusions. Every single personContinue reading “Boundaries”

Processing Anger

Over the course of the last three-ish weeks, I’ve realized that there’s something new to work through every day. I mentioned in my previous post that I was having a hard time praying and being vulnerable with God. This weekend, as I took my monthly Sunday off from leading worship, I was allowed time toContinue reading “Processing Anger”