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Protected: 1 Month

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Over the course of the last three-ish weeks, I’ve realized that there’s something new to work through every day. I mentioned in my previous post that I was having a hard time praying and being vulnerable with God. This weekend, as I took my monthly Sunday off from leading worship, I was allowed time toContinue reading “Processing Anger”

Busier is Better

Today was busy from beginning to end, and the productivity was welcome. I woke up feeling fine and for the first time in more than a week the feeling didn’t disappear by the afternoon. Meetings and prep work for the school year, a meet and greet with students and parents, cleaning the house, and dinnerContinue reading “Busier is Better”

Refocusing

Today marks a week since we lost the baby. Surprisingly, I feel fine this morning, but I know that can change by the afternoon. Who knows where I’ll be at when 3pm hits–the moment all of our fears were confirmed. It’s hard to know which part of this miscarriage story will pop up in myContinue reading “Refocusing”

The Week of Appointments

In an attempt to normalize this (miscarriage) a little bit more, for myself and whoever might be reading this, I think I need to write down all of the feelings and thoughts that I experienced before and after the miscarriage as I trekked back and forth to the doctor. When you’re in the thick ofContinue reading “The Week of Appointments”

Hi, Baby

CW: miscarriage Hi Baby, It’s been five days since I last wrote to you. It feels like it’s been much longer than that. It’s raining and thundering right now. The sky is really dark. It makes me want to lie in bed and do nothing.I missed you a lot last night and I thought aboutContinue reading “Hi, Baby”

Lost You

CW: miscarriage Dear Baby, Today we lost you. Mommy knew something was wrong for a few days…and I was scared that we would lose you or that you weren’t growing correctly. Then all of a sudden, despite the reassurances that the symptoms were common, I started to feel a lot of pain. It felt likeContinue reading “Lost You”

Protected: A Chapter

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Schools and Race

In an effort to consolidate my thoughts for a discussion I will be leading soon for church, I am writing out my thoughts which have been formed throughout my time teaching in the School District of Philadelphia. When we look at America’s education system we are confronted with a lot of uncomfortable truths. It’s hardContinue reading “Schools and Race”

My Reflection on Injustice Through the Lens of The Church

My existence has been a sheltered one. My understanding of injustice in my country’s history has been puny despite a great education. My practice of my Christian voice has been underdeveloped. I’m biracial, half Taiwanese and half caucasian, but most people would tell me that I’m racially ambiguous and my caucasian genes are strong. TeachersContinue reading “My Reflection on Injustice Through the Lens of The Church”