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We went to the zoo today without a stroller. We should have brought one, but we didn’t. So when your little 1.5 year old legs got tired from marching along paved paths to the animal enclosures you raised your arms up and said, “hug.” Truthfully, my arms already began to ache when we walked fromContinue reading “Sweetness”

Snapshots

snapshot 1There are so many people and suddenly I feel tender. I look for my toddler and stay as close to him as I can. Just being next to him grounds me. I lean my forehead against his and take comfort in his proximity. This is not a loss of identity. This is home. snapshotContinue reading “Snapshots”

What’s Important

A rainy day exists dark, damp, and misunderstoodLabeled ‘dreary’ and wished away in children’s songs butThe parched earth drinks a rainy day upRejuvenation and revitalization dripping through her veins.Name a more glorious day than the fresh day after rainBlossomed from unfettered unrelenting release.So settle into his intimate embrace.Become comfortable with tracing raindrops down windowpanes WarmContinue reading “What’s Important”

Thanksgiving Reflection

I have moments when I feel so intensely thankful that I’m pulled to sit down at my computer to write out all of the wonderful ways I’m blessed. Funnily, once I find the moment to do so I don’t know where to begin. So what are you thankful for this year? Let’s go around andContinue reading “Thanksgiving Reflection”

Earthshine

The full moon gets all of the attention. She glows like a streetlamp,Introducing shadows to midnight,An unexpectedly gentle encounter.Luminous, unblushing, evanescent, She demands to be admired, Printing halos of light in the irisesOf those faces that are turned upwardsTo study her. But consider the sliver of silver, The crescent with earthshine at her side.Delicate, elegant,Continue reading “Earthshine”

Rainy Evening

On occasion I long for spontaneous, passion-driven adventure that is foreign to my daily routine. Foreign because my days are structured down to the hour. Any unplanned moment welcomes potential chaos and frantic improvisation, both uncomfortable enough to avoid as often as necessary. There have been many evenings this summer, however, when I’ve looked atContinue reading “Rainy Evening”

Come Home

Update– In early July I finally received my first tattoo. It’s everything I hoped it would be and it gives me another layer of peace. Home is here and also wherever you are right now. For two years I’ve wrestled with whether you ever actually existed or if you’re a fantasy concocted by my brainContinue reading “Come Home”

Incomplete

I don’t know what to write.I start and stop a hundred different ideas because they’re both exhausting to complete and inadequate at portraying what I want them to portray. I don’t have the artistry to paint a picture that satisfies my angst. No camera lens can capture the bittersweet beauty that I find as IContinue reading “Incomplete”

Glow

I was going to write about fireflies dotting the cool summer evening.They remind me of nights spent waiting patiently for them to land on my fingertips. One second invisible and the next softly announcing their presence. But before I could sit down to write, I got caught up in a different kind of magic.A babyContinue reading “Glow”